A thousand of inspirations gushed into my brain while I was watching Titanic. I have watched it for a couple of times if I’m not mistaken yet I’m still badly addicted to it. Was it because of Jack or Rose? Or them both?

It’s the true love story it possesses, a love that never fades even until death, never even until the end of the world. Just because love failed me, I began to doubt its existence. I began to lose fate ands laughed hard seeing how stupid I once was. But today, I’ve realized it once again. Love. It has just been rejuvenated in me, deep in me. The power, the strength of love is blowing towards me like the howling wind in the winter.

Who am I to even voice out my opinion on love? Something which you can never possibly find without scarification? Something which you can never entirely experience it until you truly love with a heart that really loves. Something which can never be substituted, never ever. Believe me.

She loved him whole heartedly. She loves him, in fact. The love they created is a proof of the presence of what we so called immortality. A love with neither an ending nor the mildest deterioration on earth. Even death will never ever tear them apart. And so does him.

I’m just a girl. Or more accurately, a soon- to- be lady. True love happens on everyone, it happens on those who are prepared and willing to love, willing to wait, willing to bare the pain it brings, willing to appreciate and praise, that’s my only destiny towards this extraordinary four letter word.

A word that touches the hearts of all, you and me and everyone.

And I murmured to myself, “True love lasts longer than forever”. There goes my very own authentic quote. A quote that reignites love in my heart’s core.

With a heart that believes strongly in love,

I am not afraid to

swim in the ocean
that mirrors the sky
and
tickles the shore
so gently in the evening

No matter how rough
waves can be
How strong
the howling wind
might blow
I am still counting
every grain of sand
washed up to the shore
And soon it's my turn
Being carried back to the shore
by the waves
as warm as the summer's rain.

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「 Sunday, July 12, 2009」
「 4:05 AM 」

Hi loves. I'm hardly in the mood of blogging lately. Lack of inspiration or courage to reveal truth? It never fails to make me wonder ceaselessly.

How often do you get inspired by someone you know?How often do you get the chance to cross paths with people who will teach you life's lessons? Tonight is one of those rare days that I listened so patiently to a friend's great concerns and being left awed and inspired at the end of her story. It makes me think how people often easily be so proud of themselves of their personal achievements...having double degrees (or even more), having the ability to juggle time between different priorities, being in charge of big successful events, having a truck load of money to splurge on.

Sometimes we lost ourselves, our gratitude towards the small things in life when we've hit the jackpot...and we so proudly label ourselves as an individualist among the millions of people living ordinary lives, judging by only our own standards and our own achievements.

Tonight, I learned that you don't need to hit the jackpot to be extraordinary. You don't have to travel across continents carrying hopes of saving lives. Sometimes, the people who really need your graceful saving are those whom are close to you...especially your own family and blood. Some people brag about being half way around the world, trying to make the world a better place for everyone, to ease misery. Indeed, I do not doubt such sincerity. But tonight, I am reminded that some people are so unfortunate that they cannot even help themselves to begin with - let alone trying to help make the world a better place. These are the kind of people we should all look up to - the ones who have to fight against the odds for the survival of one's self.

Tonight's the night I've been waiting for..for me to be able to cry my heart out..for the bad things I've gone through, and for the tough survival of a friend.

Life goes on. People walk in and out of our lives. The people we've crosses path with are those whom you cannot imagine life without and some whom you chose to discard from your life after the things they put you through.

Tonight I learn to never ever be disappointed and give up hope when people walk out of my life and vice versa...because I learn to trust that better people will come into my life to replace the vacancies left by the people who chose to walkaway and leave even greater impact in my life.
I believe that broken and damaged people are blessed because they learn to be kinder souls from the ghost of their pasts.

Mother Theresa says she wishes God hadn't trust her so much in handling the difficulties in life that God constantly throws at her. Tonight, I'm glad to say I feel the same..that I wish God hadn't trusted me so much to handle life's obstacles. But of course, what are my difficulties, compared to hers?

I promise to be kinder, to be a better listener to my friends, to attend to those who needs me, to appreciate those who chose to stay by my side when the world walks out on me, to be a better dutiful daughter, a concerned sister, remain a hopeless romantic, to lend a hand when I am able to and most imminently - to not stop believing that things do happen for a greater good.

Tonight, I am freed. Tonight, I am inspired. And this is my acceptance speech, come what may.
May this also be your acceptance speech to whatever it is that life puts you through.

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「 Thursday, July 9, 2009」
「 7:36 AM 」

"I got my copy of Galaxie. Bert is hell so hawt. Gawd!"

"LOL. so you will most probably be hugging your bf tonite in bed? But to me, seriously, u r hotter=D"

"LOL. not bf but hubby. *jeez* dont be jealous. haha. me being hotter? then galaxie should have my posters in them"

"Yea, they really should. If it were to be so, i would surely hug it so tightly throughout the night, darling"

LOL. Our super duper random conversation through sms. Eventhough pretty illogical, but still, the sweetness it brings is undeniable. Love ya ;P

Nites everyone!

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「 Sunday, July 5, 2009」
「 12:25 AM 」

You are still pretty much
the same as how u were,
me,
not much changes
has occurred in me,
but alas,
there have been
unintentionally
too many revolutions
between you and me.

no, never mind. I will make it through somehow, no matter how rough it is.

-inspired by melvin

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「 」
「 12:13 AM 」

You don't understand me. Nevermind about that.

Kiss away my pain, will you?

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「 Wednesday, July 1, 2009」
「 6:15 AM 」

30th June is the day where by my nightmare begins. I was listening to Hitz in the car waiting for my mum to get her hair done. And my phone rang, and I was told that I'm so unlucky enough to be selected to go NS. Consider this a luck? Or a curse? I'm pretty much speechless.

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